don't go home.

And everyone's so fake
And everybody's empty and
Everything is so messed up
Pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that I'll protect you
From all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doin
Imagine where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far

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WELLCOME 2 mi sad and sorry life...
DONT b sad 4 me just yet..
I will rise frm the death
SoOon.....

Friday, July 28, 2006

heys....back..

hello!!
sup
wow..
been awhile since i blog
got so much 2 blog..
haha
wow..tis whole week has been so stress!!
i almost wanted 2 giv up
its stiill soo testin
sch...home...frens...
haix
everyting la!
always try 2 look on the bright side..
but
its jus soo hard..
i keep getin pulled dwn
and...i wanna climb out..
soo badly!
yet..im pulled dwn
wah!!
damn tirin la..
i feel sooo tired
i told myself...i wanna cum out of
this self pity life
i wana b strong..
but...everyting around me seems diff
soo diff..i wans me out!
totally

welll
im jus glad during tis time..
im still able 2 put aside my stuff
and listen 2 my frens prob..
so manny prob...
i felt soo sad la..
i mean..every1 has stress u noe..
look at me..if u r inside me..u will noe how
^fCukin~ depressed i am la
but..y the hell do i wanna play wif my lifE?
cutin...smokin..sucide..
cumon!!!thoes r the ways of the coward la!
trust me..i tried it b4..and i so damn ashamed of
myself...dats y im out ther 2 tell ppl
stop tis Fuckin MAdness!!
God gave u life 4 u to b sum1!!!
stop wastin it!!y do u let ur probs control u!
SOLVE IT DAMN IT!
if every turn 2 givin up
then the world is a goner!
everytime i heat tings lyk tis...i wanna cry!
i tink of my tings..and i look at urs..
we r almost nearly dyin dat noe!
but way give up and die..
y not rise frm the dead and b sum1!!
y not prove ur self 2 ppl who look dwn on u?
y giv them the satisfactory of c u die!!!!
fuck thoes who look dwn on u!
r they the 1s who r goin 2 b by urside when
u bcum a champion?
or will they b the 1s who will b eatin their word!!
so wat if ur frens dun care 4 u!
dat only 1 person..
they r so many who love u and wan u 2
b a winner...
so want if ur mum hates u?hurts u?
condamns u?
show her u r not wat she make u out 2 b
but y prove them right?
Y!!!

haix..sori..im jus so stressed myself
but..im not wantin 2 giv up
i dun want 2..i had enuf of cryin ova my probs..
i realised no mater how much i complain..the prob will stil
b ther
i mus make a choice 2 get out!
its in my hands...and God will b my hand..
he will help me eventually i noe he will
he is jus makin me stronger..
and 1 day...i can use my experience 2 help
sum1 who is jus lyk me

actually...i already started 2 work on that..
and 1st time i managed 2 hit the point home
mayb its bcus..i had the same prob as my fren 4 a damn long time
soo i knew how 2 deal wif it..
the best part is i made her feel beta and that feelin was so nice
hais...
i realli duno how 2 help ppl ok..
i can onli relate my life wif theirs..
make them feel they r not alone
haix

anw..i duno wat 2 do already
realli duno la!
i hope the people who read tis noe how much they
mean 2 me..u dun hav b my gf 4 me 2 care 4 u
i can care enuf 4 u as a fren..
and i will..no mater wat..
plsss...stop..

poof;
time;9:54 PM

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